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And here are the highlights of the rest of the week.
So I’m actually liking my Thursday class, a lot. The professor is a straight-up journalist from Spain who’s been living here for quite awhile now. Anyway, we had to use a list of verbs (god bless Spanish) to write out fake quotes or find some from a newspaper. I, of course, waited till 3pm today to bother writing any. And I sincerely thought I did the whole thing wrong when he started ripping through most everyone else’s stuff.
When it was my turn, he read out my first one a few times, and then said, “you not only managed to wake me up, but you’ve given us an excellent example of what I wanted with this homework.” And after confirming that 3/4’s of my work was pretty spot-on, he congratulated me on doing a good job.
I have to be honest, it’s been the first time in awhile since I’d received such praise from anyone. It really made me feel vindicated, in that one moment, especially considering from who it was coming from. It really, really made my day, week, month. If you’re wondering what that first quote was, here it is (with an English translation):
“Él empezó a caminar a dónde yo estaba, con una mirada casi como del diablo, y sabía que no tenía más opción que al menos tratar de defenderme contra su hacha”, ilustró Juan Sánchez.
(“He began walking towards me, with a stare almost like the devil’s, and I knew I had no other option except to at least try defending myself against his ax,” Juan Sánchez narrated.)
Also, my university has deemed it fit to cancel my classes, despite the fact that the deadline to make a payment is at the end of March. So, yet another obstacle in getting my student loan, because now I have to go to the professors and get signatures and then shove the papers at the university people and tell them I’M GETTING A LOAN SONS OF BITCHES.
I’m also wondering if I should pause this whole post-bachelor’s/master’s and try completing a bachelor’s in public relations. I have most of the classes necessary, and I probably won’t need more than a few more. If I can get a Pell Grant to cover it, I might do it, since I really need more leverage in my professional job hunt since my paperweight doesn’t cut it.
Speaking of job searching, I recommence Sunday. I’m done licking my wounds. I’ll go through my usual, and start plotting out places I’ll scout myself. I will also continue my prelim website, which is half-done. I’m using a tool to do it, so I can have an idea as to how I want it, so that I can design it myself as soon as I find a good wifi hotspot to leech off to finish CS5.
And, in case anyone is in doubt, to be perfectly honest, I think this whole friendship-whatever-the-fuck might actually work out between me and Cosmo. I know what you’re all thinking. Oh man, I’m just hanging on to him because of some small stupid hope blah blah blah. But actually, it’s mutual, this friendship-whatever-the-fuck. And, I’m noticing things becoming far more lighter and easier between us now than a month ago.
I will be honest, I don’t know if I’m ready to move on yet. But not because I’m hoping he changes his mind, rather because I don’t think this is the moment yet, and besides, if we love each other and have fun with this, why make it complicated? Because honestly, it really doesn’t feel complicated anymore. It’s kinda odd. But I accept it. It’s a new kind of challenge. An interesting one. And I’m curious to see where it leads. Tomorrow we’re going to go see Black Swan, and Saturday we’re off to a McCafe after I finish work. And I actually think it’ll be fun.
I think I only accept it, also, because as I’ve consolidated my feminism and my overall thoughts on interpersonal relationships over the last few years, and accepted as a whole that relationships of any kind between two people have the capacity to change over time and not solely define themselves in one box.
Anyway, I have a long day tomorrow. I’m going to sleep, because I’m actually tired.
